It has been a week and I'm always cold.

Everything seems so weird, especially now that I’m back home in Austin. Nothing seems right, like my skin doesn’t fit anymore and my house isn't my home.

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I’ve found myself working to remember specific details about my dad. Not just how he looked, but memories of us doing things, conversations, events. I became frantic the other night because I couldn’t remember the sound of his voice and I thought I had lost him again.

Everyone says that he is a part of me and that he is always in my heart. But it’s a poor second. How I would love to hold his hand just one more time.

For tomorrow's papers

On Tuesday October 25, 2006, Harvey R. Langee Sr. M.D., a devoted husband, treasured father and cherished friend, peacefully passed away, with his family at his side.
Born in Boston, Massachusetts in 1925, he was in the United States Naval Reserve V-12 program in Electrical Engineering. In World War II, he proudly served in the United States Navy. After graduating with an English (writing) degree from Brown University, he moved to New York to pursue an acting career and met his future wife of 57 years, Jacqueline Fisher, a classically trained singer performing on Broadway. Realizing that acting was not his forte, he worked in public relations. Then at age 33, he and Jackie packed up their children, Joanna and Hank, and moved to California to attend Stanford University Medical School. While a medical student, Harvey supported his family as a free lance writer and was a proud member of the Writers Guild of America. He wrote scripts for approximately 50 film and television programs, including those for PBS, IBM, Bank of America, Film Counselors, and the United States Navy.
They had two more children, Christopher and Leslie, and in 1968, Harvey graduated from Stanford University Medical School. He moved his family to Gainesville, Florida, where he became a professor with the University of Florida’s Department of Psychiatry. In 1973 until his retirement in 1997, Dr. Langee was in private practice, working with various medical establishments, including (then) Alachua General Hospital, Tacachale Center and as Director of North Central Florida Community Mental Health Center. A dedicated physician, he cared for the needs and well being of the local mental health community, as well as publishing his research articles to improve mental health care.
An avid boater and a member for many years of the Coast Guard Auxiliary, Dr. Langee took immense pleasure in being out on the water. His greatest joys though, were his loving wife, family, and friends. A man of great intelligence, compassion, wisdom and wit, his sweet love was all encompassing and his presence on earth is greatly missed.
He is survived by his wife, Jacqueline Langee, children, Joanna Langee BSRN, Harvey (Hank) R. Langee Jr. M.D., Christopher Langee, Leslie Langee, sister and brother-in-law, Leona and Henry Kaplan, son-in-law Samuel G. Campbell, grandchildren Robert A. Campbell and Christopher J. Campbell, former son-in-law, Larry Watkins, many nieces, nephews and friends.
A memorial and celebration of the life of Dr. Langee, will take place Saturday, November 4th, 11am to 1pm. For details call Forest Meadows at 352-378-2528.

today, we will remove my dad from life support. my sweet angel dad. this is my saddest day and i am so utterly grief stricken.

Linklater, Rodriquez and Me

Last night at 10pm , I was on KEYE news being interviewed with Richard Linklater, Robert Rodriguez and the Texas Film Commissioner, Bob Hudgins. Pretty good company! They even had one of my scenes in there from jumping off bridges.

O.K. to be truthful, I have never met these folk and the in-depth news segment was a compilation of interviews between all of us. But still, not a bad group to be added to at all!

I was so relieved that the news interviewer was so cool. In fact, everyone from KEYE was great.

I would love to put the video on my blog, but I can't figure out how to get it over here from the news website. It will probably be gone soon, so if you want to see the segment, check out www.keyetv.com . You can find it in the video area. Click on the video lead where Robert Rodriguez is wearing his cowboy hat. (I'm sure the film offers are going to be rolling in at anytime!)

We are honored!

jumping off bridges, will screen in a National Institute of Health “Science in the Cinema” Special Event on November 15^th of this year. This event is sponsored by the Office of Science Education, National Institutes of Health and U.S. Department of Health and Human Services. The event is a tribute to Dr. Wayne Fenton

Self Distribution

It’s has been a crazy, long, difficult and enlightening journey of self-distribution for jumping off bridges. The first meeting consisted of us saying “Hell Ya, let’s do it!” and basically we haven’t stopped since.
Kat and Stacy have been doing this 24/7 for months and months. They don’t take no for an answer, ever, and this is in addition to their jobs which actually pay the bills. (Yes, 24/7 and paying jobs. People who work at something they are passionate about and have day jobs know what I’m talking about here.). Tracy also works her ass off to get the word out about this film, get screenings, works various day jobs and still maintains her wonderful enthusiasm and energy.
I do the kids/home/actress routine. When I’m not working with, or to the benefit of raising my kids, or I’m not on set for an acting gig, I’m working on Storie Productions. More and more though, they are crossing over into each other. When I'm on set, I tell everyone about the film and make connections. WHen I'm at home, I find myself grabbing moments to send emails at all times of the day, or I'm shlepping the kids to the post office for mailouts, taking business calls when they're home, or while I’m shuttling them to after school activities.

Fortunately, there are moments where my work and being a mom blend wonderfully. Like when I was talking on the phone to the director of a news program, who could hear my kids practicing their violins (which occasionally sounds like cats in heat) and we ended up laughing through the whole conversation. Or the time an anchor from a tv station called right before one of my kids ran in screaming, with blood dripping down his elbow, which had resulted from his encounter with the sidewalk via his bike. When I called the anchor back, we connected over kids and road rash. Who would have thought.

It really has been a different path lately. Sometimes hard and frustrating but always worthwhile, and exciting. We only have a few more screenings to go and then back to full time pre-production for Brain Brawl and Stacy’s doc and come to think of it, I need to get back to my screenplays.

Michael Emerson of Lost

FOR ALL OF YOU MICHAEL EMERSON FANS WHO ARE FANATICAL ABOUT THE SHOW " LOST."

YES! THE MICHAEL EMERSON WHO IS IN OUR FILM JUMPING OFF BRIDGES, IS THE SAME MICHAEL EMERSON THAT IS THE HEAD OTHER ON "LOST."

AND YES, HE IS A PHENOMINAL ACTOR AND I LOVED WORKING WITH HIM!!

IF YOU WANT TO REALLY SEE HOW MUTLIFACETED THIS ACTOR CAN BE, CHECK HIM OUT IN OUR FILM.

It’s a crazy time for all of us with Storie Productions. The screenings are happening everywhere and we are getting’ going!

The screening event in DC which is being sponsored by NIH and MCHA is so huge. Sometimes I just find myself grinning about it and at the same time bewildered at this films journey. It’s an amazing feeling of it taking it’s own path and I’m just helping it along.

I hope when I learn enough to be able to make my own films, that they will also take flight.

Michael Emerson of Lost

Check it out. This is Michael Emerson bio from ABC's LOST website.
Hi Michael!

"After graduating from Drake University with a major in Theater and a minor in Art, Michael Emerson moved to New York, forgot about acting and landed a job in magazine illustration. He later followed a romance to Florida, where he began acting again and supported himself with a variety of occupations, including directing and teaching. He acted professionally in the south for many years before entering the MFA Program at the Alabama Shakespeare Festival (University of Alabama). After graduating, he once again moved to New York as a struggling actor and found a break in Moises Kaufman's Off-Broadway production of Gross Indecency.

On Broadway Emerson appeared in Hedda Gabler and The Iceman Cometh. His television credits include guest starring roles on The Practice, in which he won an Emmy for Outstanding Guest Actor in a Drama Series for his performance as William Hinks, Law & Order: Special Victims Unit, Without a Trace, The X-Files and The District. He also starred in HBO's The Laramie Project.

On the big screen he appeared in such films as Saw, The Legend of Zorro, Playing by Heart, The Imposters, Jumping off Bridges and Straight-Jacket.

His hobbies include Shakespeare, the Greeks, verse, black-and-white films, black-and-white drawings, bluegrass, world crafts and ghost stories. He is a long-time supporter of the charities that are connected to the Theater community -- Actors Fund, Broadway Cares, Gay Men's Health Crisis and Off-Off Broadway, as well as publicly-supported radio stations and Habitat.

Emerson is married to actress Carrie Preston.

too long to write

I’ve waited too long between posts on this blog. So much happened, that I’m overwhelmed with where to start. How about we settle for some highlights and random thoughts.

1. Storie Productions is kicking major sweet patootie. The word is getting out about the film and the screenings are picking up steam. The San Antonio screening was awesome and the Austin screening was completely sold out. Kat is screening it today and tomorrow in Tallahassee and then next week we’re going to Houston and Nashville. And then on to DC, NY, LA and Atlanta. The chica’s of Storie Productions are working, working, working and the word is getting out. This film is going places and so is this production company. I really believe in it. A plan is forming in my head and it feels right and good.

2. I’m thinking about my unfinished screenplay and I’m wishing I had time to write. I’m hoping my hubby will take the kids for a few hours this weekend so I can dedicate some time to it. But we’ll see.

3. The weather in Austin is beautiful, but the air is full of mold and pollen and only those who are immune to it or are on allergy injections are enjoying it. L

4. I am hopefully going to visit my dear friend in CT in a few weeks. I can’t wait to see her, but I’m going to need horse tranquilizers just to step foot on the plane. Man, I really hate to fly!!!

5. One of my kids recently became a teenager and now the sarcasm and attitude have arrived.

6. I’m still married and that’s a very good thing, as we just celebrated our 19^th anniversary. Have I mentioned recently that I really love my hubby!

7. I’m really tired, so I’ll write more later and hopefully it will be sooner than later.